cyberjaya, here i come~~

in less than a month, im shifting to cyberia to do my degree there... this is my second time leaving my home and stay alone at an unfamiliar place... well, im happy to do so becoz it is time for me to grow.. i cant always rely on people and hope everything will be done for me... during PLKN, i realise that staying alone there is not easy and everything u got to do it urself. therefore i become very hardworking and independent.. after i came back, i still remain this attitude but only for a month, mayb less than a month... i did all the morning physical training at home, keep my room clean and tidy... but this doesnt stay long, after that 'golden' period had passed, all my negative 'me' is back... i become so lazy, trying to avoid troublesome matters, rely much on people... and i hate this kind of me... im trying hard to 'erase' all this -ve 'me' from my life.. but it is difficult, becoz im staying with parents... my mom will help me to prepare food, wash my cloths and clean everything...

beside of my laziness, there is 1 more thing i have to improve... that is my attitude toward people... my mmu friends told me that im abit autistic... well, i cant deny that becoz i cant really open all my heart to them yet... instead of autistic, im more to introvert... i know this since im F3... becoz when i face problem, i dunno who should i share with... even if i share, i didnt share it 100%... i prefer to stay in my room think some rubbish thing. or mayb sometime when there is no one in my house, i will cover my mouth with pillow and shout out everything... this is the way i "share"... haha... well when i go to cyber, i have to share room with my friends. and i have to learn to trust people more, and share what i think... and i have to be more tolerant to every one since i have been told by sum1 that i sound like a chief.. haiz~~ *this really hurts me*

this and this is not easy to change becoz it is part of me for 19yr. but i will try to be a better man, i wont let u down... i wont let myself down either... just give me some time, i will proof to u that i can be a better man.... well, that all for this time... see ya~

p/s: looooooong time din use english to write essay/long paragraph, i know there r bunch of grammatical errors here and there. just bare with it ya~ haha...

y u always treat me like tis!!??

comparison between the responds from u to me and steph...

SCENARIO A: when both of us need sumthing...
my case
me: i need XXX...
dad: u need tis?? oh, u can use mine / use jie jie's wan / use the old wan...

steph's case
steph: i need XXX...
dad: u need tis?? later we go ____ to buy...

SCENARIO B: when dad promise us to buy us sumthing...
my case
dad: u r still a student, so no need to buy branded stuff / best quality ( can use can dy ) / expensive things...

steph's case
dad: u r still a student, so buy
-branded stuff ( more reliable)
-best quality ( can use longer)

SCENARIO C: the thing we want cannot find here...
my case
dad: oh... we cant find the thing u want here... then we hav to buy it next time / next fair (PC fair)

steph's case
dad: oh... we cant find the thing u want here... nvr mind.. later/ tonight we go ____ check and see...

this is the way he treat me all the time... :'(

朋友啊朋友！看开点吧！

唉！朋友啊！你几时才能振作起来啊？你说你已经放下了，却每当看到，听到，知道她的事时，就会触动情伤。。这算什么放下嘛？？这次看到她的照片，还特地打电话给我跟我说没事，鬼才相信你叻！！之前也只是传传短讯告诉我，现在却打给我，我就知道你很需要人安慰。。。兄弟啊，我听你说要好好读书已经听了几遍了。你却还是对她念念不忘，这要怎样好好读书呢？虽然我们兄弟俩在不同的地方，可是你的那一句话已经把我们连起来像真兄弟一般了。你说我是你认识的朋友中，最好，最能信任的一位，所以你把所有事都告诉我。你刚刚的那通电话，让我感到十分的惭愧。你最后跟我说谢谢，就是那个‘谢谢’让我不知所措。不能帮到你，还跟我说什么谢谢啊？ 我只能在这里祝福你，希望你能早日挥去阴霾，重见阳光。。。

p/s: 有什么事，记得一定要告诉我哦！

失恋！！

哈哈，别误会哦！失恋的人不是我。。而是我的一个哥儿们。。。他最近失恋了。。。打从我认识他，我就叫他不要把她看得那么的重要。因为这一切都是虚有的。但是他却不听，一直把头往她那里栽！最后还是落得失恋的下场！希望他能赶快振作起来，继续做个天才学生；赶快在我面前炫耀，我都不会嘘你的！！

朋友，加油吧！！

18岁了~

好也！我终于18岁了。这么说我对自己的誓言已经达成了。。。也就是说我能做的事也随着便多了。。。真是太好了！！今年的生日比以往很不一样。。。不一样的是，今年的祝福比起以前多了很多很多。因为今年多了我在营里认识的朋友和老师们的祝福。。。不只这样，生日后的第二天，多亏wan在mmu里祝我生日快乐的时候，被我的学长听见。他带动我的队员一起唱生日歌给我。。。起初是超尴尬，但后来想想，还算是个很不同的经验吧！！

哪我的生日当天是怎样过的呢？ 我也只是白天出去走走，晚上就去吃韩国餐。。说到韩国餐，我真是不能不提那烤肉，好吃到~~~~吓死人。。。夹着一片又一片的香烤猪肉，放在青菜上面，再来就是韩国特酱和蒜头一起包起来，然后就一口接一口往嘴里塞。。。只有一句话---真是一绝啊！！吃完韩国餐以后，我和姐就去看电影——prince of persia。这是某人送给我姐的戏票，所以不看白不看嘛~ 这部戏是很不错，可是由于这是从报纸中换取来的免费戏票（自由入座），所以到场排队的人还真不少。。。而且这还是我第一次要跑的去跟人家抢好位子。。。

总而言之，今年的生日过得比以往特别得多了。。。希望未来也能这么特别的度过。。。

哈哈~

再多7个星期，就是我的18岁生日啦！！嘻嘻~ 18岁了，我的誓言将要结束了。。。很多事情都可以做了。。。哈哈~越想越期待。。。不瞒你说，我认识的某一个人，他也开始拍拖咯！真是替他感到高兴。。。希望他们能够很幸福。。。

3/2/10 星期三

今天我们有排球比赛。比赛时，我非常满意整个比赛过程。为什么我会这么说呢？因为在整个比赛中，我的表现还算不错哦！因为我在第一场比赛中帮队伍取乐过半的分数而得了胜利。第一场，我们以15：13战胜对方。。

第二场，我的表现还算不错。但要比起第一场的话，第二场逊色了一点。。。我做了一些失误，像是开球出线，接错球等。我自己就送了3分给对方。。比赛以11：15输了。。

第三场，我没什么表现到，可以说是没接球。。。可是，我的service球有帮队伍的了6分。最终，我的这6分帮不上什么忙。我们以13：15结束了比赛。。

虽然我们输了比赛，可是虽败犹荣。因为我们很合心，他们帮我们喊的口号也很有趣。在整个比赛，我真的很开心。因为自从kl,ccem 的表演之后，我再也没feel到团结的力量了。在这个比赛中，我重新认识了团结。不只这样，每当我的了分以后，他们都为我欢呼。这种感觉真的很不错，很有满足感。。。

我的口号：
--Dobby Dobby  cuci baju~

另外一个版本：
--Dobby Dobby gong xi fa cai~